Healed of Cancer & Divine Appointments

I shop at Wegmans…a lot.  I am there sometimes two or three times a week.  And, yes, I have prayed for some people there, sometimes in the aisles, sometimes in the breezeway.  I walk away not ever seeing them again and wondering how they are.

A few months ago, on a Friday morning, I stopped there on my way to work to get my morning latte and as I was walking up to the store I “just happened” to notice a man walking across the parking lot, limping.  (When I say “just happened” what I mean is the Holy Spirit caused me to see him.)  My first thought was “Man, I would love to see him healed.”  And immediately this mocking voice comes crashing in (wonder who that could be) saying “Well, go ahead, sister Christian, go heal him then, you really think you can?  C’mon, go on, do it…”  All laced with doubt and sarcasm.  I told the voice to zip it and went in to get my coffee.  I was in there for about 10 minutes and as I was walking out I look to my left and see that very man walking right beside me.

Now I KNEW.

I say hi and start making small talk with him.  We stop outside and chit chat for a few minutes and finally I say “Listen, what can I pray for you for?  I want to pray for you.  What do you need prayer for?”  I wasn’t expecting what came out of his mouth.  He said “I have cancer. I’ve been struggling with it for 15 years.”  My heart burst with compassion for him but also with love for God because He brought this man to my attention for a reason.  He said that the doctors were concerned about it going into his bones.  I said “Uh-uh, no way, Jesus is going to take care of that.”  I pulled him over to the side and dropped my stuff to the ground and put my hand right over his heart and right there spoke healing, rebuked the cancer, commanded life.

When I was finished I think he was a little flabbergasted and he thanked me, telling me that he had an appointment the following Wednesday.  What timing!  I told him I hoped to see him again to hear that good report.  As I walked to my car, I praised the Lord and thanked Him for healing “R.”  The enemy of course tried to come in with doubt, but I spoke God’s Word…I said “God Your word says if I lay hands on the sick they WILL recover, and I know You are true to Your word, so I believe he IS healed.”  For the next week I took time every day to thank God that “R” was healed, and asked to see him again.

A few weeks later, I made a trip to Wegmans.  I don’t usually go on Monday’s but I decided to go pick up a few things anyhow.  Once there I ran into a friend I hadn’t seen in a while and when we get together we TALK!  I mean, for a while!  So after we caught up, I got my stuff and cashed out.  As I was getting ready to leave, I flip-flop over whether or not to get a coffee and decide what the heck…and who do I see at the buffet on the way there?  “R.”  I was thrilled.  I asked how he was and he said he was ok.  I asked about the doctors and he said they were going to do scans on him to check his “status.”  I said (with total enthusiasm) “Hey, don’t worry, you are going to be just fine.  I know it.  I have no doubts!”  I gave him some encouragement and walked out thanking God again for the opportunity to see him and to be able to reassure him.

So, today, I had a hair appointment at 11:00.  There were a few things I wanted to grab (yes, at Wegmans) and considered going after my appointment but for “some reason” (ahem, Holy Spirit) I felt the urge to go beforehand.  I walked in and headed right for the fresh baked bread and who was standing there in that very spot?  “R.”  I walked up to him and started chatting him up (he is a very quiet and soft-spoken person).  Then I asked, “How are you?  You doing okay?  You been to the doctors?”  He said he had his scans done.  I asked, “And..”

And he said “They were all negative.”  Oh yes, glory to God!  I had to contain myself so as not to freak out my friend.

I said “So you’re all good?”

“For now,” he said.

I said “Oh no, for good!”

“I hope so,” he replied.

“No, you ARE!  Because it’s done and He loves you!”  And then I went on to tell him how I had prayed to the Lord to see him again so I could hear for myself his good report.  I wanted so much to convey to him hope and the love of God for him because he’d been living with this for so long that’s all he knew.  I hugged him and invited him to come see me at work sometime….because I really would love more opportunity to share the love of God with him.

I cried all the way to my hair appointment, for the goodness of the Lord, for “R” and his healing, for God hearing my heart and leading me to those “divine appointments” of seeing him all those times and couldn’t help but to see Holy Spirit’s leading and timing through every one.

And this is the life I want to live….His life lived through me, what He’s given to me I get to go and give.  “And as ye go, preach, saying, The kingdom of heaven is at hand. Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils: freely ye have received, freely give.” (Matthew 10:7-8)  He told me “Daughter, you don’t NEED healing, you HAVE healing.  You have what they need.  So go.”

To Him be the glory.

Thank You, Lord.  With all my heart.

God bless,

Miranda

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What were you thinking?

The enemy works so hard at attacking your mind, your thoughts, your imagination, because he knows that it’s the place where seeds are planted and grown, where things begin to form and take shape, where, when things considered and entertained long enough, BECOME.

Your thoughts transform you.  First comes the thought, then the emotions and actions follow.  If the enemy can keep your thoughts & imagination under his influence and rule, if he can keep planting & implanting his dirty seeds, if he is allowed to keep feeding the mind with lies, then we become those things because we believe them.

If he tells you your worthless and you believe that, you live out that belief in the way you act and speak and live.  If he tells you you’re unloved, hopeless, sick, diseased, stupid, whatever lies he speaks, if you allow it and believe it, that will be the reality that you live out.

It’s scientifically proven that thoughts can change your DNA, your genetics, that they affect your body, your digestion, your hormones & chemistry.  (For a good in-depth book about this I suggest “Switch on Your Brain” by Caroline Leaf, M.D.)  You quite literally become what you think, which only serves to back up God’s Word.

Proverbs 23:7A says “For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he.”  (The Hebrew definition for “thinketh” is: A primitive root; to split or open, that is, to act as gate keeper.)

God’s word tells you the importance of your thought-life and what you believe and the power it holds.

Genesis 11:6  “And the LORD said, Behold, the people is one, and they have all one language; and this they begin to do: and now nothing will be restrained from them, which they have imagined to do.”

Proverbs 4:23 “Keep (guard) thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life.” (The heart in the scriptures encompasses your soulish areas, mind, thoughts, will, emotions.  What you house/harbor there comes out in your life, you live it out.)

Mark 9:23 “Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.” (You believe with your mind)

Matthew 21:21 “Jesus answered and said unto them, Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done.”

Mark 11:23-24 “For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith. Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.”  (Note: first you think it, believe it, with no doubt, and then you speak what you believe and what you have faith in shall come to pass.)

And Satan knows the importance of these principles.  Like I’ve said before, he knows spiritual principles better that most believers and he loves nothing more than to use those very laws and people’s ignorance of them against them.  This is why he works hard to subdue your mind, keep your thoughts under his dominion.  He will constantly buffet and bombard your thoughts and imagination to drive it home, to get you to give in and receive & believe his lies, to make it become your reality.

Now you’re giving life to the seed, which if left unchecked will only give birth to corruption and you will then live out a lie.

God’s Word is the incorruptible seed that tells us the truth of who were are, reveals to us that we are created in God’s image & likeness, that God gave us dominion & authority, and that even though we gave it away, that Jesus came to redeem us and restore us to our rightful place as sons of God.  That when we are born-again, we become engrafted into God’s family, our dominion restored, our authority is inherited, bequeathed to us by our Testator, Jesus.  That we are loved, saved, healed, victors, conquerors, ambassadors, temples of the living God and therefore we are LIFE BRINGERS!

Think now, why does the enemy work so hard to steal this seed, this truth, from us the second it’s sown?  To keep us in doubt and unbelief and fear and what-if’s, because he knows the danger, oh yes, the danger that truth realized in us poses to him and to his kingdom, to his illegally obtained territory.  When we know beyond the shadow of a doubt who we are and what we possess in Christ, we are a threat.  This is why the enemy continually tries to “exalt” his “high things” (lies, deceit, fear, doubt, sickness, etc) against our knowledge not only of God, but of who we are in Him & who He created us to be.

Oh, to be out from under that shadow, brethren, oh to be fully engulfed in the loving light of Christ and His revelation to us of His truth, totally illuminated by it, by Him, His love.  Complete love casts out fear, because fear has torment and fear is never, ever of the Lord.

Remember:

2 Corinthians 10:4-6 says “(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ; And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled.”

WE are the ones to be taking any evil things captive, not allowing them to take us any longer.  We’ve been set free.  Get into the Word, get the revelation, know the truth, seek Him so that you can be completely set free from the lies and be in bondage to them no longer.

And it starts in your mind.  Renew it.  Know who you are and what you have in Him.

God bless,

Miranda

To you….

I pass by this guy sometimes on my way to or from work, sitting and waiting for his bus to go to work.  He always looks down, miserable, unhappy.  Add to that the fact that he buys a large can of beer from the corner store across the street before he goes to his stop.  He’ll either drink it outright or pour it into his thermal coffee mug.  I hated seeing him like that.  I couldn’t help but wonder, what was it that drove him to that place?  Why did he feel so bad?  Why why why…???

One day, on my way home, I saw him there and I rolled down my window, pulled over to the side and said to him, “Hey, God loves you.   I just wanted you to know that.”  I don’t remember what he said in response, but it wasn’t very enthusiastic.

 

On another day, the Holy Spirit inspired me to write him a letter.  And this is what it said:

 

To you:

You are loved.

You are special.

You are treasured.

You are important.

You are more than your current circumstances, more than your mistakes, far more than what you think you are and way more than you could ever imagine yourself to be.  Open your eyes and mind to new possibilities, ones that only God Himself can provide for you.

Imagine this:

There you stand, tall, happy, joyful, bold, confident, liberated from any bondage’s or disillusionment that holds you down, freed from the whispered lies of hopeless defeat that plague you day after day.

Picture this:

You, there, dressed in fine linens, royalty, a chosen son adopted by God Himself into His Kingdom; a brother and co-heir with Christ Jesus….all that the Kingdom of heaven is and has becomes YOURS as a son.  No more standing outside looking in.  No more wishing or hoping or burying the disappointments under a self-induced numbness to keep the pain of failed expectation at bay.  No more, because Jesus took it all for you and from you.  Picture it:  a new life in Christ, full of joy and peace and love.

And why?

Because He loves you.  He loves you so much He laid down His life for you, took pain, sickness and punishment so that you could be free.

FREE.

This is how God sees you through the eyes of the sacrifice of His one and only begotten Son, whose shed blood covers and takes away all the things we’ve been told that we are, that we’ve been conditioned to believe are true…but they’re all lies.  He is the truth and the truth is:  HE LOVES YOU.

YOU.

I make this declaration over you: that you will receive this revelation in such a profound way that your life will forever be changed for the best; you will become His and all that He knows that you are and will be as a chosen son loved by God, the one who created you.  You will be a living testimony and you will change the lives of others with this truth once it becomes yours.

I don’t know your name, but God does and He has it written on the palm of His hand:

“Look, I have inscribed you name on my palms; your walls are constantly before Me.” (Isaiah 49:16)

 

God bless.

Sincerely,

Someone who cares

But don’t we all need to know this?  Even us, those of us who are “believers” or consider ourselves “Christians”?  Do WE even see ourselves as this?  Free.  Sons.  Saved.  Rescued.  Redeemed.  Healed.  We throw these words around but do they even have any weight?  Have we the true revelation about what these words mean and the gravity of all that Jesus did for us so that we could truly become like Him??  Do you know what your inheritance is as a son?  Most would say, “yeah, heaven, when I die.”  Oh but brethren, it is SO much more than that.  Jesus, as the Testator of the will of God, died and that inheritance is something that becomes ours NOW.   Here and now.  But we cannot act on what we do not know.

We are not to be what we once were.  We are to put on Christ.  We are to be citizens of the Kingdom, imitators of God, shedding the old man like dirty garments and stepping into the new man that He created us to be.

Who are you?

You are loved, special, treasured, His.  And in this knowledge, we are then to go and tell others that they, too, are these things as well.

God bless,

Miranda

Illusions

Illusion: something with deceptive appearance; false or incorrect idea.

The enemy operates in the realm of deception and lies.  He wants you to keep your eyes on what SEEMS to be and not what really is.   He wants you to believe that you are living a life of lack: lack of health and peace, lack of provision, lack of evidence, signs, healings, miracles; lack of the Word of God working and producing in your life, lack of change, even the lack of God’s presence.  When you’re going through a trial, which of us doesn’t at some point have the thought of “Where is God?  I don’t feel Him!”?  This leads you to begin to doubt God’s love and provision and presence just because you don’t FEEL it.

The enemy functions in the realm of the senses and when we rely on our senses as our source of truth, we are then open to his deceptions.   We are then prone to believing his lies that we are lacking when the Word of God says that we lack nothing when we are in Christ.

Adam and Eve had it all.  No lack whatsoever.   They had peace, health, food, everlasting life and more importantly, intimate fellowship with God Himself yet what did the enemy get them to focus on?  The one and only thing that God said they could not partake of ……and why?  Because He was being mean and withholding something good from them?  No, because they would DIE if they ate it.  DEATH would be their reward.  Did they not understand what that meant?

If we allow ourselves to focus on the illusion of lack, then we are partaking of and eating the lies of the enemy and this brings death to us.

It begins to kill your faith.  It’s like a small infection that, if not treated, will keep spreading and growing until it eats away at anything living and good, leaving behind rot, decay and death.   The enemy knows that it is by FAITH that we receive the promises of God; he knows that the substance of FAITH is what makes those very things manifest and thrive in your life.

It kills off your trust in God and in His Word.  Did God really say?  Why isn’t it working?  I don’t see or feel anything different or better so it must not be working which means God’s Word doesn’t work, at least not for me….if I still feel this way then why bother praying and standing on the Word….and on and on and on…..  Don’t think for one second these thoughts are all yours.  Who do you think plants those seeds and then waters them with fear and anxiety and symptoms and unbelief?    The enemy knows full well the laws of sowing and reaping.  He knows how the spiritual laws of God operate better than most Christian’s do which is why he can keep doing what he does and be so successful at putting them under repeatedly.

It kills off your identity in Christ.  Well, if I really was then this would change…..I wouldn’t feel/be/act this way….since I don’t see or feel any change then maybe I really don’t….maybe I’m really not…..

It kills off your peace.  So, if I still have these symptoms/issues, and it doesn’t work, at least not for me, and I’m not what I thought I was, and God’s Word isn’t producing in my life, then there’s no hope…I’m not healed, I’m not protected, I’m not saved…..  It fills and torments you with fear and dread.  It kills off your joy, your light, all the things that Christ is to be in you, all the things that are the fruit of the life of the Holy Spirit within you….and this brings death to your spirit as the light begins to be overshadowed by darkness, suffocating the flame inside until it’s snuffed out completely.

THIS is the enemy’s purpose.

It can and does bring death to the physical body: sickness, disease, malfunction, fatigue, weakness.  People grow weary of fighting and some even give in to death, believing that it is better for them to die than to live.  The enemy wearies them into full subjection and snuffs out the light of Christ in another, to quiet another….because he lies.

And we believe.

He is the creator of lies, the stealer of truth.  We must stop letting him take from us what is rightfully ours.  ALL (not some) of the promises of God in Him are yes and in Him amen for the glory of God by us (2 Corinthians 1:20)

Paul tells us that we must bring ALL/EVERY thought(s) captive.  They must all be tried against the Word of God and if that thought does not line up with the Word, we are to discard it forcefully!   “For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds; Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.” (2 Corinthians 10:4-5)

DO NOT COMPROMISE with the enemy of your soul.  Not once, not ever.  He will steal any morsel he can get his hands on.  Give and inch and he’ll take so much more.

Be tenacious.  Dig in.  Know that no matter how bad the “illusion of lack” can seem God’s Word IS life, it DOES prosper but we cannot let the enemy steal that seed or allow him to dig it up and out from under us or it stalls the process.

Fight the good fight of faith.  Get and keep His Word, guard it like a precious gem, bury it deep within you.  It’s your only offensive weapon against the enemy, and he’ll do anything he can to knock it out of your hand so that you are left defenseless, left to become just another statistic of the devil, who started off so strong, but man, what happened???

Did God really say?  Well, go find out for yourself….

Then hold tight and don’t give up.

God bless,

Miranda

The Good Shepherd?

I had a conversation with someone last week and something that was said completely disturbed me.

We were talking about God and suffering and I said that I absolutely do not believe for one minute that God puts suffering/sickness on us to “teach us a lesson” or to discipline us.  Aside from the fact that it is unscriptural (please do NOT mention Job’s boils or Paul’s thorn), it is out of God’s character to do such a thing.  The person I was talking to disagreed with me wholeheartedly and believed that He does do that.   After some back and forth, this person then tells me that they once heard a pastor (well-known) do a sermon on Psalm 23, the shepherd and His sheep.  I’ve personally read “A Shepherd Looks at Psalm 23” by Phillip Keller (highly recommended) and couldn’t imagine where they were going with this.

They said that this pastor said sheep are inherently stupid, that they needed to be disciplined (i.e. the rod, of which this person also mentioned the “spare the rod, spoil the child” verse, etc).  This pastor then went on to say that to keep the sheep safe that the shepherd would BREAK THE LEGS of a wayward sheep to keep it from running away from the flock and into danger then he would carry it on his shoulders until it was healed and it would be dependent on the shepherd and never stray again.

I’m sorry…..WHAT?  I was so incensed by this statement because it’s so out of God’s character but I mean… is this what His people are really saying and believing about Him?  Of course I went and researched this statement to see if any of it was true.  Nope.  Not true.  It’s an anecdote pastor’s use.  (To keep this short I’ll paste one of the article links here http://pulpitandpen.org/2014/06/27/the-shepherd-breaking-his-sheeps-legs-myths-thatll-preach/ ).

But let’s say that human shepherds actually DID do that?  What does that say about God?  Would that in any way reflect how Jesus treats us as His sheep?  We have to measure everything against His Word so what does scripture say about the sheep (us) and the shepherds (pastors or God/Jesus Himself)?

First of all, there is a scathing judgment on the “shepherds” of Israel by God Himself in Ezekiel 34.  The first four verses read:

And the word of the LORD came unto me, saying, Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds of Israel, prophesy, and say unto them, Thus saith the Lord GOD unto the shepherds; Woe be to the shepherds of Israel that do feed themselves! should not the shepherds feed the flocks? Ye eat the fat, and ye clothe you with the wool, ye kill them that are fed: but ye feed not the flock. The diseased have ye not strengthened, neither have ye healed that which was sick, neither have ye bound up that which was broken, neither have ye brought again that which was driven away, neither have ye sought that which was lost; but with force and with cruelty have ye ruled them.”  (Read all of this chapter, very telling)

Sorry, but to me, breaking someone’s bones to “keep them safe” is forceful, cruel and abusive.  Causing disease and suffering to “work something out” in people’s lives and character is forceful, cruel and abusive.  Let me ask you this:  would YOU do that to someone you love to teach them a lesson?  When children are harmed or beat in the natural, it’s considered ABUSE right?  Well, have you ever thought that maybe their parents are trying to work out some character flaw in them?  I mean, isn’t that what we’re saying about God?  Imagine this:  maybe you see your child is going astray, making poor decisions or acting in ways that are “sinful,”  ways that are going to bring more harm to them in some way….so based on this “logic”, maybe you should afflict them physically, inject them with poison or a disease so that you can “keep them safe” or strengthen their character, teach them a valuable lesson.  And not only that, but then they will come to depend on you as caretaker and parent and it will draw them closer to you.  Then, ultimately you get to decide when they are ready to be healed and restored, if at all.

Ridiculous, isn’t it?  Doesn’t that make you mad?

That would be considered a “captive audience” and God is the Liberator, not the Captor.  How many times does the Word say He came to set the captives free?  “And I will be found of you, saith the LORD: and I will turn away your captivity.”  (Jeremiah 29:14A)  And not only that, but God does not force Himself on anyone, He does not work against someone’s will.  We have free will, we make our own decisions and God cannot and will not go against anyone’s will.

Does that above scenario sound loving to you?  So how can people say that God is love and in the same breath say that God gave them cancer?  Or that He killed someone they love because “He needed them?”  They say it because that’s what they are taught.

Back to scripture.  What about Jesus?  What does HE say about sheep (us) and being the Good Shepherd?

Matthew 12:9-14 – “And when He was departed thence, He went into their synagogue: And, behold, there was a man which had his hand withered. And they asked Him, saying, Is it lawful to heal on the sabbath days? that they might accuse Him. And He said unto them, What man shall there be among you, that shall have one sheep, and if it fall into a pit on the sabbath day, will he not lay hold on it, and lift it out? How much then is a man better than a sheep? Wherefore it is lawful to do well on the sabbath days. Then saith He to the man, Stretch forth thine hand. And He stretched it forth; and it was restored whole, like as the other. Then the Pharisees went out, and held a council against Him, how they might destroy Him.”  Notice: first, the man in the parable did not break the sheep’s legs to teach it to not stray, nor did he leave it in that condition, he went and SAVED IT.  Second, Jesus was talking about HEALING, healing the man, who is better than the sheep!

Luke 15:4-6 – “What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it? And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing. And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbours, saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for I have found my sheep which was lost.” There is rejoicing over the one found.  Not anger or punishment. He left all the rest of his flock to go and rescue the one who was lost.  Do we not all get lost at times?  Do we not all go astray?  Are we always perfect and obedient?  No.  But God comes through LOVE, His Word, and His Spirit to bring us back to Him.  It’s the LOVE of God that brings people to repentance.

In John 10, Jesus talks extensively about the Shepherd and the sheep.  He says that He goes before the sheep and the sheep follow because they KNOW HIS VOICE.  When He speaks, they hear, they listen.  How does He speak to us today?  Through His Word and His Spirit.  He teaches us to heed His voice only, so that all He has to do is speak and we will listen.  He draws us in through love and trust.  And if the sheep (us) do not listen, if we do stray, we suffer the consequences of our poor decision to leave the safety of our Shepherd’s watch and care.  He doesn’t need to inflict harm on us, we do it to ourselves. And we have an enemy who will take full advantage of our disobedience.

V:10-11 – “The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep.”

He came to GIVE us life, not take it from us.  That’s Satan’s job and for people to lay blame on God for OUR sickness and suffering is blasphemy.  And if God “uses Satan” to teach us lessons (as some teach), then Satan is not a thief because he’s only doing what he is told and given permission to do.  If he has permission, it’s not robbery.

Jesus gave His life.  He took our punishment; the price was already paid for our sins!  If we need to be continually made to suffer punishment for our wrong doings, then there was no reason at all for what Jesus did.  All the scourging and suffering He endured was all for nothing.

God is love.  Love does no harm.

He mends, He does not break.

God bless,

Miranda

Stage fright

Well, it’s been made official. My book is finally published. It’s taken four years; a lot of time, a lot of laboring and waiting and patience and tears and excitement and panic. It’s been a roller coaster of emotions and thoughts. I certainly could not have done it without my husband. He put as much time into the technical as I did on the creative. Self-publishing has its benefits but be ready to put in a good amount of time and effort, do your research, look at others who’ve done it and learn from their mistakes.

Being self-published it’s not a perfect work. As a matter of fact I found a misprint in the published copy after I ordered 50 books but, hey, I’ve found typos and mistakes in professionally published books so it is bound to happen. This is where I have to bind and gag that task-mastering perfectionist and not allow her to freak out about it.

It’s a little unnerving to put yourself out there creatively, open to the criticisms of the public, even with a fiction novel. When I was younger, poetry was my creative outlet. Poetry to me was intensely personal; it was my inner self poured out into words on paper, my deepest thoughts and fears and emotions manifested into logos. And I was extremely cautious as to whom I let into those places. Not just ANYONE could read those poems. Not just ANYONE would understand. Not just ANYONE was allowed to look past the curtain and into the great beyond. I was always very discerning as to who was allowed to have access to those truths.

And here it is, a book that I’ve written now published, available to anyone who so chooses to pick it up and read it. Yes, it may be fictional, but it is still hugely personal for me on many levels. I wrote it. I spent 4 years of my life pouring myself into this story and these characters, and yes, as a fiction writer you DO put pieces of yourself into it somehow, someway. Maybe some piece of your personality becomes part of a character, you make your own personal experiences one of theirs, some part of your heart and mind and life does wind up in there, so in a sense it is still poetic, it is still you in there somewhere.

There’s also the story itself. It’s not a typical story. My husband asked me when I first started writing this book, “So, how would you categorize it?” I said, “Babe, I don’t think a book like this has been written.” (No, I haven’t read every book in existence, but this was how I felt about the story.) After he read it, he agreed with me. The entire time I wrote that book, I was thrilled about the story and couldn’t wait for it to be published. That being said, when it came time to put it out there, I would wake up in the middle of the night in panic about the story and the plot to the point where the thoughts came to just cancel the whole thing and not publish it (the enemy loves to come in like a thief in the night to steal your sleep and peace).

I got worked up into an anxious lather about all the ways people would pick it apart and hate it, that people who supported me would be disappointed once they read it. I started to believe that I was going to let people down. Thank You Jesus for the people in my life who reminded me that this was all inspired by God and it has a purpose and that these were just lies of the enemy because he knows that this story is going to touch SOMEONE, somewhere, sometime.

Is it a perfect work? Nope. Is it purposeful? Yes. And the only person that I have to be accountable to is God. I know that not everyone will love it, some may even hate it, and that’s okay. God will take it where it needs to go and His purpose will play out for a greater good. It’s not about me. Yes, I am ecstatic and grateful that He made my lifelong dream of being a published author come true and I will enjoy all that goes with that. I have my first book signing this Saturday and while I am a little nervous, I am excited and I have so many people around me who are excited for me. But it’s more than that. It’s an opportunity to share the love and truths of God in another way. And THAT’S what matters.
All for His glory, not mine.

God bless,
Miranda
http://www.hiselectnovel.com

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The Great Physician

It amazes me how fast we give up on God.  When He doesn’t “come through” on our time frame or operate under our expectations, we throw up our hands and say “Oh well, wasn’t meant to be” or “must not be God’s will for me” or some other excuse that we come up with that causes us to give up on God’s word, which, by the way, is His truth.  In a way, it’s giving up on God Himself.

Healing is one of the biggest and most divisive subjects in the church that this happens with all the time.  We, as the church, have failed in so many ways regarding this issue.  We have made up bad doctrine and false theologies out of our failures and then tell people “well, it must be God’s will for you to be sick then, oh He is chastening you because you’re in sin, He’s working out a character flaw, He’s testing your faith”…etc. etc…insert unscriptural diatribe here…..  (I could write a whole dissertation on THAT subject, like if it’s God’s will for you to be sick, then don’t pray it away or seek a doctor because then you’d be in rebellion, refuting Paul’s thorn and Job’s boils, but that’s for another day….)

However, they will then quickly go to a doctor and will follow THEIR directions and instructions to the T.  They’ll take the medicine religiously; they’ll read up on “their disease” and “educate themselves” about it, filling their heads with all the terms and technical jargon and statistics so that they can know all about it.  It begs the question: did they do as much for God?  Did they go and search and dig in the Word for His truths and promises and cling to them with as much dedication?  Did they fill their heads and hearts with His truth so they can know all about that?  Did they go after and seek God Himself, fellowship with Him, spend time in His Presence and get to know the One who created them?  They can talk with all knowledge and authority about the sickness but can’t give one scripture regarding God’s will for their health and well-being.  Shouldn’t it be the other way around?

They’ll allow the doctors to poke, prod, cut open, take radiated pictures of their bodies, fill their bodies with man-made chemicals in HOPES that it will work, remove organs and parts…thereby becoming a torn apart and now lesser version of themselves, certainly not any longer how God created and intended them to be.

The success rate of doctors and medication is NOT 100%.  Yet people STILL go despite the risks, of which there are many.  They still take the medicine in desperation for some relief despite the side-effects or that they may have to be on it for life.  So it’s basically managing symptoms, it’s not a remedy.  If they were curative, you wouldn’t need to take them every day for months, years, or even for the rest of your life.

How sad for God, the Creator of our bodies, the One who breathed life into us, who knit us together in our mothers’ wombs, that we trust more in man and his ways than in God and His ways.  How sad for Jesus who took our sin AND SICKNESS (Isaiah 53:5, Matthew 8:16-16; 1 Peter 2:24) upon Himself so that we could be freed from it in our redemption, that He seemingly took it for nothing when we continue to claim sickness and disease as our burden to bear.  Did He not bear it for us?  Would you dare look Jesus in the eye and tell Him, “Well, what You did wasn’t enough to cure what I have and to save me, but thanks anyway.”  Would you say that to Him at the whipping post, blood-covered and unrecognizable, taking stripes for you?

Is it really so much easier to wait weeks for a doctor to see you for maybe an hour, someone who doesn’t really know you, who only hears what you tell them in that short time, then decides for you on your behalf what THEY think is best for you only to shove you out and please come back in 6 months for a checkup (and then have to pay hundreds of dollars for their advice and treatment that may or may not work) than to fellowship with and get to know the Great Physician who already paid for your healing…with HIS LIFE??  You’ve already been bought and paid for, as has your healing.  It’s part of His benefit package when you sign up with Him (Psalm 103:1-5).

Jesus is available 24/7/365.  You don’t need to make an appointment.  It could be 3 in the morning and no one is around but if you seek Him, He will be there.  He’s just waiting for you to take that step.  A decent physician practices medicine to try to help people; Jesus the Great Physician heals people because He LOVES them and gave His life for them.

Let me say that again:  GOD LOVES YOU.  YOU.  YES, YOU.

Which report would you rather hear?

One that says, “Well, we found something and we’re going to have to cut you open, poke around inside your body, remove pieces of you that are sick, stitch your skin back together and then give you medication that may or may not help you and comes with a variety of side-effects that could make you feel bad….”?

Or one that says, “You’re healed.”  ??

I know which one I’d rather hear.  And you can hear it every time you look in God’s word because that’s a promise He gave to us.  Not only that, but one of His redemptive names is Healer, Jehovah-Rapha (Exodus 15:26).  The Hebrew word rapha means: to mend (by stitching), to cure, (cause to) heal, physician, repair thoroughly, make whole.

In the book “The Healing Creed” by Becky Dvorak she writes: “When we preach from human reasoning instead of truth found in scripture, people suffer.  When we put all our faith in the doctor’s report in place of the Bible, miracles cease.  When we trust secular psychology rather than heed biblical counsel, healing is hindered.  We suffer from unanswered prayers when we give in to the world’s system of doubt and unbelief, but we can change that situation around.”

How many times did Jesus say to those who came to Him for healing “your faith has made you whole” or “be it unto you according to your faith”?  So, whose report are you going to put YOUR faith in (Isaiah 53:1)?

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(Please, read this carefully and thoughtfully, as I know messages regarding divine healing are very conflict-ridden and cause offense in a lot of people.  Jesus offended a lot of people with it, too, but He loved people too much to be quiet for the sake of keeping the peace.  No, I do not know it all, and yes, I do have my struggles, too, however we must staunchly refuse to let our situations override God’s Word.  Our theology must never be circumstantial but must always line up with His word.  I do recognize that everyone has their own convictions regarding faith and doctors and are in different places in their walks with the Lord and that the Lord can and does meet people where they are in their walk/faith because He is a loving Father who cares for His children.)

God bless,

Miranda

Some books to consider regarding this subject:

The Bible

Christ the Healer – F.F. Bosworth

His Healing Power – Dr. Lilian B. Yeomans

Healing the Sick – T.L. Osborn

Jesus the Healer- E.W. Kenyon

War: Resistance & Opposition

So, my book is almost ready to be OFFICIALLY PUBLISHED.  My lifelong dream is finally coming to pass, and all because of God.   Ever since I was 10 years old and I wrote my first novel, I wanted to be the “Great American Novelist.”   At 15 when I started writing poetry, I wanted to be a Great American Poet.  Writing and publishing…that’s all I ever wanted to do.  I started quite a few novels in my youth, but I never did finish them.  I had books of poetry and only ever published a few poems.  I had a handful of short stories that I planned on making into a novel, but that never happened, either.

After the birth of my son, the poetry tapered off quite a bit, only a few poems were written here and there as an outlet for my down moments (which is what my poetry always was).  After I got saved, I wrote even less.  I just gave up the dream figuring that my writing was just something that I had as that outlet for my angst and depression and that it was no longer a needed thing now that I had Jesus.

And then, one day, an idea was hatched in my mind for a story.  Four years and 350 pages later, my book is now only a few weeks away from being “official” and I know if it wasn’t for Him that this book would not have been written.  It was Him all the way.  I have felt nothing but excitement over this endeavor but I have realized that the closer I get to the time of my novel going public, the more that some doubts and fear have begun to sneak in.  Doubts over the story, doubts over the plot, fear of people not liking it and speaking poorly about it, or God.

And we’ve already talked about where fear and doubts come from.  Not God.

It’s resistance and opposition from the enemy of our souls to keep us from coming into our God-given callings and dreams because he knows we are going to impact SOMEONE, and he hates that.

Since the beginning of my walk I have experienced quite a bit of resistance and opposition from the enemy.  About six months into my walk, I woke up in the middle of the night and I KNEW that there was a demonic presence in my bedroom.  I was paralyzed with fear. I opened my mouth to rebuke whatever it was and found that I could not speak.  It’s like my mouth was anesthetized and full of glue.  I kept trying and trying and finally I was able to speak and rebuke it in Jesus’ name.  The presence left but from that night forward I was stricken with intense insomnia.  For weeks (maybe even months, I honestly don’t remember) I received maybe 30 minutes of sleep per night.   Thirty minutes (and no, I am not exaggerating, ask my husband).  Do you know what that can do to a person?  I honestly felt like I was going to go insane.

I couldn’t even nap during the day though I tried.  I also tried EVERY natural “remedy” under the sun (herbs, creams, white noise, “sleep-inducing” scents, relaxation music/techniques, vitamins, change of diet, exercise, etc.) as well as a prescription antihistamine (once) and even an Ambien (once, and only once).  I remember at one point I went over 52 hours without any sleep at all.  Eventually sleep began to gradually come back however even to this day I go some of the time sleeping full nights uninterrupted and the other times waking up at least once a night and having to go downstairs on occasion to try and get some sleep…on the couch.

About halfway into writing this novel, I was put under the most intense attack of my life.  I started to be afflicted with almost constant panic and anxiety.  I started manifesting bizarre symptoms that sent me to the E.R. where they put me through a multitude of tests and found…absolutely nothing.  I could barely eat, I could barely function.  I had many prayers prayed for me, many times hands laid on me, I begged, pleaded and cried to God.  The enemy had taken such a hold over my thoughts that suicide crossed my mind on more than one occasion.  I would wake up and the second I was cognizant immediately these thoughts came in: “You’re never gonna get over this.  You’ll never be free of this.  There’s no hope for you.  God isn’t real and if He is, you’re never going to get healed.  It’d be better off if you just died.”  Except the thoughts were in first person, like they were MY thoughts.

I remember I woke up one morning and this one word kept going through my mind: thanatos.  I’d never heard that word before so I looked it up.  It’s the Greek word for death (in Strong’s concordance it’s G2288: death, physical or spiritual.).  Talk about frightening.  The enemy was literally trying to kill me, somehow, someway.

We DO have an enemy, friends, and he is cunning, conniving, wicked, evil, hateful.  He will stop at nothing to stop God’s children from coming into their full identity and inheritance.  He knows your weaknesses so intimately because HE HELPED CREATE THEM.  Isaiah 54:17 says “No weapon formed against you shall prosper.”  The word “weapon” means something prepared and the word “formed” means molded; to determine; to fashion.  Yes, he will prepare weapons against you in the form of a very specific individualized attack based solely on YOU, on your fears, your weaknesses.  Any crack in the foundation is going to be absolutely exploited by him to bring you down.

If it hadn’t been for some very specific things, I would not have recovered from these attacks.

1: Holy Spirit baptism.  Yes, it is for us now; yes, we need it; no, the baptism and its gifts did NOT “die with the death of the last apostle.”  That’s completely unscriptural and just the kind of lies the enemy loves for people to believe for then they are without power.

2: A strong spiritual family and church fellowship.

3: Getting into the Word and digging deep for His truth and applying those truths to my life.  This is where we find out who we are and what His promises are for us.  You want to know God’s will for you?  Read His Last Will and Testament (Bible).

4: God and His faithfulness.  During this time He spoke to me often, gave me many prophetic dreams and patiently loved me into stronger places in my faith.

5: God still worked miracles and healings in my life and still worked healings through me as I stepped out and laid hands on others and prayed for them.  Even though I was in a not-so-good place, even though I may have had doubts for my own self, I never doubted for others and God was so good and faithful to act on His Word and those moments of faith.

GET IN THE WORD.  GET IN HIS PRESENCE.  Praise Him, worship Him, seek Him.  Resist the enemy.  I cannot thank My Lord enough for never giving up on me, for strengthening me, for loving me and for giving me my life-long dream.  I only want Him and more of Him.  I pray the same for you, because it’s in His presence, in that secret place, that we are under His Divine protection and care, our Good Shepherd, our Abba Father.  If we don’t, we are going to be casualties of this war, and that’s not what God intends for us, for you. He said no weapon will prosper, but we can’t act on what we absolutely do not KNOW.  Get into the KNOW, friends, and crush the enemy under foot. STAND.

God bless,

Miranda

“The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.”  Psalm 18:2-3

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Roots

So, it’s been a while since I’ve been here, written anything, or even been inspired to do so.  Aside from the fact that I have just been busy (tis the season) I’ve been dealing with some “issues” that, to be honest, I’ve given a lot of time and attention to.  Focused on.  Some weird symptoms had cropped up that I’ve never before experienced, and right on the heel of those symptoms was THE VOICE.  It began to immediately diagnose me, giving names to what COULD be wrong.  Oh that wretched, hateful diagnostician, always ready to pounce on the heels of any aches and pains, waiting in the wings with a paint brush in hand for just the right moment to begin creating pictures of fear and what-if’s and could it be?  Vivid depictions much like a horror movie begin to play and dance across the playground of imagination all the while backed up with fear and panic for good measure, just to solidify his agenda.

Doubting the Word of God.  Doubting God’s goodness and promises.

Did God really say?  Haven’t we heard that somewhere before???

And I’ve come to realize that these ploys are all just like a magic show….prestidigitation.

Look over here so that you’re not focused on what’s really important: the truth.

The Lord spoke to me through this trial and told me “Daughter, you’re focusing on the wrong things.  You’re trying to go after the fruit (symptoms) but what you should be doing is going after that root.  You can cut away branches all day long but if you leave the roots, the fruit will always come back.”

Yup, more gardening parables.  But He was absolutely right.  And what is my root?

FEAR.  (Shocking, I know.)

Now let me say something about the “roots” of physical symptoms and illnesses.  It’s true.  Stress can do so many awful things to your body.  It can cause your heart to fail, literally.  Fear and panic produces that whole adrenaline “fight or flight” response and if you read about all that that entails, you’ll see just how much these things affect your body.

Dr. Henry Wright wrote a book called “A More Excellent Way: Be In Health” and he goes into great detail about the effects of stress and anxiety and also wrong thinking on a body in every area and facet.  He noted that ALL women who presented cystic breasts and ovarian cysts, for example, had “issues” with their mothers.  “These conditions come out of a break-up of a relationship between a girl and her mother.  Unresolved issues involving a great breach where there is no fellowship.  It extends down to the reproductive area.  It involves a full issue of femininity.”  (page 265)  He states that IBS and all gastrointestinal disorders are always rooted in fear, anxiety and stress.  “Much of the malfunctioning of the gastrointestinal tract is caused by not having peace in your heart regarding issues in your life, with the exception of Crohn’s disease, which is an autoimmune disease.”  (page 211).   This book is full of his research on the correlation between operating in these fashions and the negative effects it has on the body.  The end of the book is chock full of testimonies of those who received complete freedom and healing from their diseases and disorders from being delivered and liberated by God and His truth.

I also recommend reading “Switch on Your Brain” by Dr. Caroline Leaf.  She goes into great detail about the way your THOUGHTS affect you down to the cellular level and how by changing your thoughts you can actually change your genetics.  CRAZY STUFF!  Which means we are NOT victims of an unchangeable force like the world would have you to believe but that we can change our lives by our thoughts.  “For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he.”  Proverbs 23:7

So, back to my original statement.

God has shown me that my victory comes through defeating that fear personally in my own life.  He has already obtained that victory for me, yes, but I am responsible for applying that truth to my own life.  That means deliberately, consciously CHOOSING at ALL times to trust Him, even when my feelings say otherwise.  It means pushing past the fear, to not let it paralyze me and back me into a corner where I am cowering once again under its shadow.  That means getting into His Word (His promises, which for us are yea and amen) and digging deep to find in there what HE says about me, about my situation, about who I am in Him, about how much He loves me and that I should not fear.

The bible says that our minds are renewed how?  By His Word.  His truth.  Not the world’s version of truth, because the world system is under the influence of the enemy, who is the father of lies.  And we’re so surrounded by those influences every day: tv, radio, news, books, people!  Unless you become a hermit you can’t avoid these things.  But it’s taking the time every day to get into that place with Him, to seek and talk to Him, to worship Him, to know that He is with you ALL THE TIME, even when you don’t feel it.  One of the biggest lessons I have been learning is that if you are going to walk with the Lord, you absolutely CANNOT go by feelings, which has been one of the hardest things for me to be deprogrammed from.  We live in a world that is sense and feeling based.  “How do you feel?”  “I don’t feel in love with him anymore.”  “I feel so angry.”  People of the world are SLAVES to their feelings.  But faith has no feelings, otherwise it wouldn’t be faith.
When Jesus healed someone He never asked, “So, how do you feel now?”  He just said “Your FAITH has made you whole.”  And they were.  Every time.

Have the faith of God. It’s a gift.  Take it.

God bless,

Miranda

And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.”  Romans 12:2

Be not afraid, only believe.”  Mark 5:36

Consulting the Dead

My entire life up until the last decade was pretty crazy. Quite dysfunctional. (And as I sit here typing this, my fingers just froze over the keys, overwhelmed at the thought of telling people anything about my past.) Funny thing: since I have become a Christian I have spent a good portion of this walk absolutely hating who I used to be, have felt deafening shame over my past and all those decisions I made and all those self-destructive things I did. It was tormenting, really, trying to reconcile who I was and who I thought I was supposed to be now as a “good Christian girl.” I tried my damnedest to kill off every part of me and shape myself into what I thought I should look like. I became very inauthentic and it drove my husband crazy. I was also driving myself crazy. I was trying to do God’s work for Him. (Are you thinking to yourself: how’d that work out for ya?)

I was living the try-hard life. The do-more-to-be-more way. Which is exactly how I lived my life up until then. Nothing was ever good enough and I received my validation in what I did not who I was and that attitude carried over into my walk with God. I created this perfectionistic standard by which I thought I needed to live up to in order to look like what I thought me as a Christian should be. So, even though I was trying so hard to bury my old self, I was still consulting that corpse as to how I should react and respond.

That dead girl still had a hold over me.

And she still does.

See, that dead girl lived a life a survival, just trying to live and get by, always wishing for something better but never expecting it. That girl made poor decisions, sought validation in a lot of wrong places, hurt herself and allowed other people to hurt her. Inside, she was still that little girl who only wanted to feel loved, to believe someone truly loved her and cared about her and would protect her but no one ever did, who always felt alone and abandoned and worthless and unlovable. She started writing novels at 10 years old to lose herself in other worlds where she was in control, who began to write dark poetry at 15 as a way to get the pain out, who, at 17 was compared to Sylvia Plath (and for those of you who don’t know, Sylvia killed herself by gassing herself in her oven while her two children slept in another room; she was 30).

That girl left home at the age of 16. Sixteen. (My son is 7 months away from the age I was when I left home. Incomprehensible.) She went from place to place, wherever anyone would take her, never really feeling at home, but always an outsider looking in. That girl went through a depression once so bad that for three months she suffered constant panic attacks, wouldn’t leave the house unless it was to go to work and lost so much weight that people feared for her life (she weighed in at 89 pounds at one point).

I don’t tell you this to make you feel sorry for this girl but only to give you an idea of the kind of person that for some reason I still insist on talking to even though she is dead. 2 Corinthians 5:17 says “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.” And Romans 6:6-7 says “Knowing this, that our old man is crucified with him, that the body of sin might be destroyed, that from now on we should not serve sin. For he that is dead is freed from sin.”

So, if that part of me is dead, I must be talking to a dead person.

Consulting her like a necromancer.

“What do you think? How should I feel? What does this mean? How should I react?”
I am grabbing that corpse by her tattered collar and asking her for direction. And the enemy is more than happy to oblige that kind of behavior. He cannot manufacture life, but he can certainly counterfeit it. He’s a ventriloquist, speaking to me from that corpse, giving me the answers he wants me to hear. A puppet-master with his hand in the back of that dead shell, making it move and respond, speaking to me through another source like he did with Eve in the garden. And I am listening.

Why? Why do I keep doing this? This is what I really want to know. I mean, if I am to be honest, all my old-nature responses and self-defense mechanisms don’t work, they don’t get me where I want to be but are only tiny little band-aids applied to gaping, infected wounds that desperately need to be HEALED, once and for all. Why am I still so intrigued by and in bondage to these old things when I hate them so much? Can familiarity be the only reason?

I’m praying the Lord will give me an answer but that means I have to want to hear it and be ready to move and act when He tells me what needs to be done. And I pray that Holy Spirit give me the strength I need to do so, because I cannot do this on my own.

The Word says that whom the Son sets free is free indeed and I need to walk out that truth in my life because until then I am a self-contained prisoner, choosing to live in the cell while the door stands open just waiting for me to leave.

God bless,
Miranda

“And when they say to you, “Inquire of the mediums and the necromancers who chirp and mutter,” should not a people inquire of their God? Should they inquire of the dead on behalf of the living?”  Isaiah 8:19